Hello, all! It's been barely a month and half into the year and I can't believe I'm saying this but I seem to be lacking the drive for blogging? I don't honestly know why, but as much as I want to be active in this corner of the blogosphere, I don't seem to be actually doing anything about it. I can list reasons as to why this might be, starting from a tumultuous few weeks with a cousin marrying, to me deciding to pursue my MSc in Psychology this year, but that shouldn't be really a cause for this absolute...lethargy I have when it comes to reviewing.
I've been thinking this through and the only valid reason I can think of is that the very idea of reviewing has started to feel burdensome to me. I don't know if any of you went through such a phase but has reviewing never taken a toll on you? From the minute I start reading a book up I start picking up on what I want to include in my review and what not to, what the author has done right, where the author faltered, I take notes on details relating to characters and basically, I end up reading with reviewing the book in mind and that kind of takes away from the pleasure of reading. So it won't come as a surprise when I say that not only revieiwing, but reading itself has started to lose its appeal to me. It's downright alarming and the more I think of it, the more I'm appalled.
This isn't a situation that just suddenly cropped up- I've actually been going through this since the latter half of last year too. I've been busier but that never used to make READING seem unappealing but now here we are. Would you believe it if I said I have more than 30 physical books I'm yet to get around to? Some of these I got over 3 years ago, some ARCs that should have been reviewed by last year, last month, this month. I used to not have a single unread book on my shelf and now this..? WHO EVEN AM I?! Idk, I mean, maybe there has been an alien invasion and the real Ruzaika has been abducted. You can never be too sure.
Haha, that was me in denial. But I know better and I've therefore decided to do something about this positively awful, completely unacceptable situation. First, I need to get rid of distractions, obviously, and for that I intend to let my obsession with kdramas and South Indian cinema (okay, one actor in particular- Suriya) take back seat. There's only so much time a person can spend on things, so with uni, reading, blogging and other life stuff, I shouldn't be wasting time on other stuff. I'm not saying I'll give up on these altogether, but I'll definitely be prioritizing what actually needs to be done. I don't honestly know how long I can keep up with this but I hope to spend at least half an hour each day on blogging, blog-hopping and the likes, and another half hour for reading. No excuses. This sounds doable right? LET'S ALL KEEP OUR FINGERS CROSSED, OKAY?
And now about reviewing itself. I've somehow let this whole process turn mundane? I read something the other day by this film critic I follow where he expressed how it's scary that he has ended up expressing some version of the same sentiments in different reviews. "Because movies themselves don’t change all that much, writing reviews is also about finding newer ways to say the same old things." This struck a chord with me because this is exactly what reviewing books has turned out to be for me. Comment on the plot, characters, relationships, writing style, and then wrap up the review with some final thoughts on the book overall. That's basically all there is to it. I've mentioned this before too, but I'm going to have to experiment with different reviewing styles. I'd say I'd try a different medium altogether because I talk more freely than write about books but that would require actual technical finesse and the confidence to speak to an audience and uh, I have none. So writing reviews it is.
If all this fails and I'm still reading and reviewing books at the last possible minute for the blog, I hereby give y'all express permission to pelt me with stones and drive me away from this whole community.
Is it my very approach towards blogging/reviewing that's the problem here or is this something all book bloggers go through at one point or the other? How can I come out of this seemingly endless rut? Help me out, please! I'd forever be grateful.